I guess you could say I've been down in the dumps lately. Not really sure why, seeing in how I live a pretty amazing life right now. I get to spend every single day watching my son grow and learn. Sometimes, life just gets you down.
"Sometimes" has been hanging out a lot lately, and it's kind of concerning. I have a history of depression, and I'm 99% positive I had PPD but didn't get it treated, so it doesn't take much to overwhelm and upset me. Mix in a little pregnancy hormones, fear of the unknown, a wild and rowdy 14 month old, and zero energy... It equals a not so happy mommy.
I'm starting to feel pretty positive I'm making a total turnaround though! After all, spring is in the air and who can resist putting on a sundress and soaking up some sunshine?
I had a long and grueling day of doctor appointments last week, (I dropped Slade off to spend the day with a friend from church and her daughter) but it was totally worth 5 hours of my precious time. I got to see my baby, yet again! They were doing "first trimester testing" which tests for downs and various other problems that can occur. I wasn't worried though, I'm young and healthy and even if something (God forbid) was wrong, nothing would change how I feel about my child.
Everything was fine and dandy though! I will get the blood test results back late April, but usually if the ultrasound checks out everything else will too. I go back to the Dr. on April 9th for a general checkup and after that appointment I will schedule the ultrasound for the anatomy of the baby! I'm guessing it will be around April 20th. I am beyond ecstatic and I find my mind wandering daily to thoughts of what this little butter bean could be.
I also discussed my sad, hopeless feelings with my Dr. and he prescibed me an anti-depressant. After further research (he swore my baby wouldn't come out with three arms) I decided to give myself a few more weeks to see if the feelings subside. I'm happy to say, they have (so far.) I'm not against taking medications, especially since he thought I definitely would benefit from treatment-- but I don't think this is a good time to be shopping around for different pills. It's something I've done a lot of and they have never seemed to help me. Hopefully it's just early pregnancy hormones ruining my life & I can just suck it up.
On a happier note-
Tomorrow I am 13 weeks! Hello end of first trimester and all the yucky things you come with! Still not eating chicken but I have been able to eat beef and lunch meat! (in case you were wondering what's been on my menu lately)
This weekend I am really looking forward to spending some QT with my family. They are coming down and renting a place (ocean front) and we're spending the weekend there. Nothing like a little salty air to put a smile on your face...and did I mention it's going to be 70+ all weekend?!
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| house we're staying at...so stoked! |
I'm making my come back to the blogging world-- I have lots to fill you in on! Including some very upsetting news I found out the other week...that's a whole post in itself though!
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